this makes me so fucking mad because in no way is it a joke at all. suicide is not a joke. cutting is not a joke. depression is not a joke. eating disorders and anxiety are not jokes. these are real things. real fucking things that people experience and it is so so hard. people think that cutting is attention seeking. but let me put it this way, you know when you hate someone and you just have the urge to like punch them because theyre so annoying? well its the exact same when you hurt yourself. not only does it change your focus to the physical pain but you do it because you hate yourself as well. its not a joke because i still hate myself and i always will, but slowly im learning how to love other people and myself. and i swear to god that im trying harder than i ever have. the depression is always there and not even the people closest to me know because i hide it so fucking well. its not hard to cry silently. its not hard to hide your pain with a smile, because people are so oblivious. theyre used to “attention seekers” displaying their depression, that they dont even try to look behind empty smiles. people with depression are no less beautiful than those that are content. everyone goes through hard times and i am so so sick of people just telling others to “get over it” or to “stop being a sook” because no fuck you. people think i cry over the most stupid things. but its the stupid things that build up with the bigger things that are happening that no one even fucking knows about. and thats why i break so easily. because im already broken. i learnt to hate myself at such a young age and i regret it more than anything. i regret allowing people to get to me so easily. you are a terrible person if you think pain and suffering is a joke. i hope one day you realise that sending messages like this is not good. and i hope you have not & will not experience these bad things and that you are happy with your life, just like everyone else has a right to be. please think about what youre saying first, i am so fragile.
but please, have a lovely day/night. if anyone at all needs to talk, im here. please remember that xxx#answered
This is so so sweet and it made me really happy, thank you so much! Youre a beautiful person xxxx